My project is almost finished and Scrubs is on.
I had to reword a few bits of the story then re-save both parts to my inbox on GN. They're all ready to be printed out at school tomorrow. ;-D
My brother keeps asking for copies of it in the mail but I'll just bring them when we go to South Carolina to see him, the last leg of training won't leave him with much time for reading. I have to say, spending 3 1/2 days in South Carolina during December is going to be nice. When we lived in Summerville with my nana and papa we enjoyed the year-round warmth. Not always 'hot' but still pleasant in the dead of winter. :-p
The amp for my guitar is working nicely, and hopefully i don't sound too awful. Nana and Papa had forgotten my birthday so they didn't get it to me till the day after thanksgiving. It's only a cheap one, no use giving me a really nice one until i can actually PLAY.
Had to get my lovely...plain display board for my Nursing display. It's one of those boring "show what you'd do if you were in this career" displays. I have to interview somebody in that career, so I'll end up interviewing my buddy's mom, who frequently used to stab me with a needle while distracting me by talking about what Makayla and I were up to at school.
Had to replenish my locker-library today. About halfway through Sabriel and now I have another few as backup.
I LOVE the World of Warcraft commercials with Mr. T and William Shatner.
I don't play the games, i just love those commercials.
Monday, November 26, 2007
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Wooo
I'll be finishing The Tempest tonight for English, it's more fun to read than i thought it would be.
Hey Lindsay, in case you ever log onto MSN, add nikomikiri@hotmail.com .
I've been in another of those down-hill emotional things. *rolls eyes*
I have a hard time recovering from any form of emotional blow, I dwell a lot. There are a few websites that I'm considering abandoning now, too many memories for me to handle well.
I have a partially-full 24 Pack of Ski
that I can't drink and has been sitting in my room for a few months now. I need to find somebody to give it too.
Also, Lindsay, i asked Ryan but he never responded and he took down the Prom picture he took of us on his photobucket, so i need a copy. We took pictures last year and got copies, I kept forgetting to ask for one but now my mom is nagging me for it, so do you think you could ask Ryan about them? He has them somewhere, unless they were thrown away or something.
Fun fact:
Females are more likely to consider suicide, but males are more likely to actually commit suicide.
"Consider" not meaning "attempt", in my case it's more of a "what if" situation. I just run scenes through my head of what might happen if i died. It usually turns out either the way I would want it to(everybody is sad, etc.)or the flip side, everybody is happy.
It's a very depressing cycle. XD
I can imagine females considering suicide a lot. Guys have pressure put on them, but I'm not sure if it's the same as a lot of the pressure put on girls by media, parents in some cases, and hell, other girls. I'd have been much less violent in my youth if it weren't for the fact that every other girl i knew teased me for being either chubby or having a big nose.
Hey Lindsay, in case you ever log onto MSN, add nikomikiri@hotmail.com .
I've been in another of those down-hill emotional things. *rolls eyes*
I have a hard time recovering from any form of emotional blow, I dwell a lot. There are a few websites that I'm considering abandoning now, too many memories for me to handle well.
I have a partially-full 24 Pack of Ski
that I can't drink and has been sitting in my room for a few months now. I need to find somebody to give it too.
Also, Lindsay, i asked Ryan but he never responded and he took down the Prom picture he took of us on his photobucket, so i need a copy. We took pictures last year and got copies, I kept forgetting to ask for one but now my mom is nagging me for it, so do you think you could ask Ryan about them? He has them somewhere, unless they were thrown away or something.
Fun fact:
Females are more likely to consider suicide, but males are more likely to actually commit suicide.
"Consider" not meaning "attempt", in my case it's more of a "what if" situation. I just run scenes through my head of what might happen if i died. It usually turns out either the way I would want it to(everybody is sad, etc.)or the flip side, everybody is happy.
It's a very depressing cycle. XD
I can imagine females considering suicide a lot. Guys have pressure put on them, but I'm not sure if it's the same as a lot of the pressure put on girls by media, parents in some cases, and hell, other girls. I'd have been much less violent in my youth if it weren't for the fact that every other girl i knew teased me for being either chubby or having a big nose.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Interesting....but not
I had a fairly okay, if boring, birthday. The trip to the Science Center was AMAZING.
I got to browse around and look at all the neat stuff before and after the Body World part, which in itself was worth the trip. The bodies were really cool, and it was kind of creepy to see them posed like that. They were all stripped of skin, some had bands of skin left to show how thick they'd be with it and all that, but most of them were almost all either muscle or skeletal and muscle(some were partially stripped to the skeleton). There was just one statue that had its skin...with it. It was standing in a "triumphant" pose and holding it's skin up in the air. The skin dangled down and you could see every side of it, and how weird it looked when not on the body.
Off the topic of that exhibit, my buddy Lydia and I ended up walking around together the whole time, because we looked at the same stuff on the bodies and acted the same way all over the place. It was just more fun than sticking with a group that was being boring.
Last time I was at the Science Center most of the stuff was under construction, about the nly thing that you could see well was the Dinosaur thing. And when I was little I stood under it and was momentarily scared. Lydia and I stood under the T-rex head this time and joked around about it, a few seconds after we walked away this little girl with her class looked up at it and started screaming and crying. I felt so bad for her. XD Her teacher had to bring her upstairs and sit her down for awhile.
I went home and kept trying to call people so that I could go to a movie or something, but nobody was answering their phones(even when I called later)so I sat down and played Morrowind for a few....hours.
I'm trying to think of who I should bother inviting to the JILG initiation ceremony since I know my parents won't want to come. It's a lame ceremony, but as my class reporter person I have to take part in the speech thing, and I want SOMEBODY to be there. My mom may try to get off work, but my dad will just bitch about how boring it is if he goes so I won't bother asking him. (He used to try sitting through chorus concerts but I finally told him to stop because it wasn't worth his complaining the whole time)
I'm nearly done with Shadow of The Hegemon, and I have about five other books at the ready.
Yay me!
Huzzah for being 18!
I got to browse around and look at all the neat stuff before and after the Body World part, which in itself was worth the trip. The bodies were really cool, and it was kind of creepy to see them posed like that. They were all stripped of skin, some had bands of skin left to show how thick they'd be with it and all that, but most of them were almost all either muscle or skeletal and muscle(some were partially stripped to the skeleton). There was just one statue that had its skin...with it. It was standing in a "triumphant" pose and holding it's skin up in the air. The skin dangled down and you could see every side of it, and how weird it looked when not on the body.
Off the topic of that exhibit, my buddy Lydia and I ended up walking around together the whole time, because we looked at the same stuff on the bodies and acted the same way all over the place. It was just more fun than sticking with a group that was being boring.
Last time I was at the Science Center most of the stuff was under construction, about the nly thing that you could see well was the Dinosaur thing. And when I was little I stood under it and was momentarily scared. Lydia and I stood under the T-rex head this time and joked around about it, a few seconds after we walked away this little girl with her class looked up at it and started screaming and crying. I felt so bad for her. XD Her teacher had to bring her upstairs and sit her down for awhile.
I went home and kept trying to call people so that I could go to a movie or something, but nobody was answering their phones(even when I called later)so I sat down and played Morrowind for a few....hours.
I'm trying to think of who I should bother inviting to the JILG initiation ceremony since I know my parents won't want to come. It's a lame ceremony, but as my class reporter person I have to take part in the speech thing, and I want SOMEBODY to be there. My mom may try to get off work, but my dad will just bitch about how boring it is if he goes so I won't bother asking him. (He used to try sitting through chorus concerts but I finally told him to stop because it wasn't worth his complaining the whole time)
I'm nearly done with Shadow of The Hegemon, and I have about five other books at the ready.
Yay me!
Huzzah for being 18!
Monday, November 12, 2007
'Tis a sad, sad time
Well, Nathan has moved so there goes one of the last friends I had here.
He's now in a tidy little backwater school and is now considered the "art emo kid".(A fact which pisses him off to no end)
My parents have decided that they'll be selling our land most likely sooner than they had thought, meaning that most likely, next year I'll be trying to find a place to live while they buy land in Missouri and sell our land in Illinois. That damn subdivision next door is ruining my hastily made plan. I'll probably have till next summer at least for sure, but after that I can't be sure.
*grinds teeth*
Orthodontist appointment tomorrow, he'll be checking how I've done with this dandy little perm. retainer. I think I've done a good job so far.
I read Alice in Wonderland and Through The Looking Glass the other day, all of a book called Close Kin(a fantasy, really good one too)today, and I think just that really bad book called Guitar Highway Rose over the weekend.
Hmm...paper and a speech to write....
I have a JILG initiation ceremony later this month, but now there's nobody I really want to invite to it. I did have a fairly short list of people I had wanted to come, but for various reasons I've fallen out with everybody I've known the past year or two.
(Yay me, took all of High School to build my self-esteem and all it took was a half hour or so to bring it all crashing back down. That must be some kind of record. XD)
That trip to the Science Center on friday(My birthday, wooo!)will be really fun. Elisha, Nichole and I will probably wander the Center together after the tour of the Body Worl exhibit. We have about an hour and a half to wander around so I'll get to see all of it, unlike my one and only other trip there.
That's about it for now.
He's now in a tidy little backwater school and is now considered the "art emo kid".(A fact which pisses him off to no end)
My parents have decided that they'll be selling our land most likely sooner than they had thought, meaning that most likely, next year I'll be trying to find a place to live while they buy land in Missouri and sell our land in Illinois. That damn subdivision next door is ruining my hastily made plan. I'll probably have till next summer at least for sure, but after that I can't be sure.
*grinds teeth*
Orthodontist appointment tomorrow, he'll be checking how I've done with this dandy little perm. retainer. I think I've done a good job so far.
I read Alice in Wonderland and Through The Looking Glass the other day, all of a book called Close Kin(a fantasy, really good one too)today, and I think just that really bad book called Guitar Highway Rose over the weekend.
Hmm...paper and a speech to write....
I have a JILG initiation ceremony later this month, but now there's nobody I really want to invite to it. I did have a fairly short list of people I had wanted to come, but for various reasons I've fallen out with everybody I've known the past year or two.
(Yay me, took all of High School to build my self-esteem and all it took was a half hour or so to bring it all crashing back down. That must be some kind of record. XD)
That trip to the Science Center on friday(My birthday, wooo!)will be really fun. Elisha, Nichole and I will probably wander the Center together after the tour of the Body Worl exhibit. We have about an hour and a half to wander around so I'll get to see all of it, unlike my one and only other trip there.
That's about it for now.
Monday, November 5, 2007
Pity party over
It's probably not good to keep pushing it down, but whatever.
Still excited for the upcoming trip to the science center, Mrs. Hirsch has been showing us videos and newspaper articles about the Body World exhibit so I pretty much know what to expect. Dead bodies will still be a bit creepy, yet cool, to see though.
I went to Borders the other day and my mom and I looked through study books to help me now, and in the future. We settled on a HUGE Anatomy and Physiology book with review questions after each chapter to help with memorization. I've already attacked it with a highlighter.
We also got a few books on haunted places in Illinois/Missouri. We plan to visit a few of them with a family friend eventually.
I've now found out that my brother's graduation will take me out of school for three days, meaning I'm going to be behind on a crapload of assignments. D-:
I may also end up taking exams because of it.
Lame on a whole new level.
My grades for first quarter came in and they're all A's and B's, Go me.
Heh, Emily and I were discussing sad songs we like to listen to on the bus today and for some reason I was blanking on Don't Let It End, by Styx. So I ended up singing the first half of it on the bus to get the name and tune in my head. Emily said she wants to hear it now. XD
Still excited for the upcoming trip to the science center, Mrs. Hirsch has been showing us videos and newspaper articles about the Body World exhibit so I pretty much know what to expect. Dead bodies will still be a bit creepy, yet cool, to see though.
I went to Borders the other day and my mom and I looked through study books to help me now, and in the future. We settled on a HUGE Anatomy and Physiology book with review questions after each chapter to help with memorization. I've already attacked it with a highlighter.
We also got a few books on haunted places in Illinois/Missouri. We plan to visit a few of them with a family friend eventually.
I've now found out that my brother's graduation will take me out of school for three days, meaning I'm going to be behind on a crapload of assignments. D-:
I may also end up taking exams because of it.
Lame on a whole new level.
My grades for first quarter came in and they're all A's and B's, Go me.
Heh, Emily and I were discussing sad songs we like to listen to on the bus today and for some reason I was blanking on Don't Let It End, by Styx. So I ended up singing the first half of it on the bus to get the name and tune in my head. Emily said she wants to hear it now. XD
Thursday, November 1, 2007
...
I must seem like I'm fine but lately, but I feel like everything has fallen apart.
I never felt lonely before I met Ryan, now that he's not around I do.
It's been eating away at me every day now.
My parents think I've gotten over it, my mom just asks me every now and then if I've talked to him.
What friends I have don't even know anything is wrong, for the most part. I'd say that Emily is probably the only person who has any idea exactly how depressed I've been, and that's only because she lets me just talk when we're on the bus. I usually get off the bus and cry my way to my house. I've been trying to make myself busy to occupy my mind but it always creeps back to being sad, even if I'm busy.
I never felt lonely before I met Ryan, now that he's not around I do.
It's been eating away at me every day now.
My parents think I've gotten over it, my mom just asks me every now and then if I've talked to him.
What friends I have don't even know anything is wrong, for the most part. I'd say that Emily is probably the only person who has any idea exactly how depressed I've been, and that's only because she lets me just talk when we're on the bus. I usually get off the bus and cry my way to my house. I've been trying to make myself busy to occupy my mind but it always creeps back to being sad, even if I'm busy.
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