*yawn*

Christmas break.
Yay.

I officially hate Iambic Pentameter. It took me three days to force out a sonnet in Shakespearean form, which meant in Iambic Pentameter+14 lines total. I kept starting them then crossing them out and starting again. I finally got my inspiration when I read the lines of a song from Labyrinth. It was still pretty cheesy and badly written, but it was past midnight and I needed sleep.

My brother and I have been working on fixing up some of the barn, Lance has been busy getting ready for his boot camp run sometime in February.
I'll be contacting SIUE around that time and asking them about my summer classes soon. -_-
Mr. Wartick(school counselor person) says he'll help me look for scholarships. Hopefully I can qualify for a writing one, even if its small. My entry into the SIUE writing contest wasn't exactly my...'best'.
More like I squeezed out a story from a sliver of an idea. Apparently it had been gone over while I was gone and Mrs. Gauen had forgotten to add it to my work packet, then she didn't mention it until the class before it was due...
I still got it done though, and I may make another, better entry in a different category. They don't have to be sent in for judging until February, but Mrs. Gauen is collecting them so that she can send them in even though we won't be in her class.

Glenn is coming home!

We're leaving tomorrow for South Carolina to see Glenn graduate and then bring him home for a break that will be 30 days or so. I'll have to bring all of my school stuff with me because I'll only be missing three days of school, but two tests and two projects are due the day I get back(and One test I have to make up when I get back), so studying and working when I'm gone is the only thing to keep my grades up.

It's Nearly the end of the semester so my creative writing "journal" thing will be over, it's just a matter of how often I'll feel like writing in this thing now.
I didn't really need the extra credit, but it's nice to write out my thoughts where nobody but....well, I doubt more than one other person ever reads this(save myself, of course)so it's for the most part private. XD

Karl visited and I noticed why my parents keep telling me that meeting him when I was little had a permanent effect on me. < Karl is a family friend that we met in Philadelphia and he visited once after we moved here, then he moved to Reno for a bit over a year, and he just visited on his way back to Philly with his girlfriend. Heather(Karl's girlfriend) kept telling my mom that talking to me was like talking to a female Karl. O_O
Creepy.

yay me...again

My project is almost finished and Scrubs is on.
I had to reword a few bits of the story then re-save both parts to my inbox on GN. They're all ready to be printed out at school tomorrow. ;-D
My brother keeps asking for copies of it in the mail but I'll just bring them when we go to South Carolina to see him, the last leg of training won't leave him with much time for reading. I have to say, spending 3 1/2 days in South Carolina during December is going to be nice. When we lived in Summerville with my nana and papa we enjoyed the year-round warmth. Not always 'hot' but still pleasant in the dead of winter. :-p

The amp for my guitar is working nicely, and hopefully i don't sound too awful. Nana and Papa had forgotten my birthday so they didn't get it to me till the day after thanksgiving. It's only a cheap one, no use giving me a really nice one until i can actually PLAY.
Had to get my lovely...plain display board for my Nursing display. It's one of those boring "show what you'd do if you were in this career" displays. I have to interview somebody in that career, so I'll end up interviewing my buddy's mom, who frequently used to stab me with a needle while distracting me by talking about what Makayla and I were up to at school.

Had to replenish my locker-library today. About halfway through Sabriel and now I have another few as backup.

I LOVE the World of Warcraft commercials with Mr. T and William Shatner.
I don't play the games, i just love those commercials.

Wooo

I'll be finishing The Tempest tonight for English, it's more fun to read than i thought it would be.
Hey Lindsay, in case you ever log onto MSN, add nikomikiri@hotmail.com .
I've been in another of those down-hill emotional things. *rolls eyes*
I have a hard time recovering from any form of emotional blow, I dwell a lot. There are a few websites that I'm considering abandoning now, too many memories for me to handle well.

I have a partially-full 24 Pack of Ski
that I can't drink and has been sitting in my room for a few months now. I need to find somebody to give it too.

Also, Lindsay, i asked Ryan but he never responded and he took down the Prom picture he took of us on his photobucket, so i need a copy. We took pictures last year and got copies, I kept forgetting to ask for one but now my mom is nagging me for it, so do you think you could ask Ryan about them? He has them somewhere, unless they were thrown away or something.


Fun fact:
Females are more likely to consider suicide, but males are more likely to actually commit suicide.
"Consider" not meaning "attempt", in my case it's more of a "what if" situation. I just run scenes through my head of what might happen if i died. It usually turns out either the way I would want it to(everybody is sad, etc.)or the flip side, everybody is happy.
It's a very depressing cycle. XD
I can imagine females considering suicide a lot. Guys have pressure put on them, but I'm not sure if it's the same as a lot of the pressure put on girls by media, parents in some cases, and hell, other girls. I'd have been much less violent in my youth if it weren't for the fact that every other girl i knew teased me for being either chubby or having a big nose.

Interesting....but not

I had a fairly okay, if boring, birthday. The trip to the Science Center was AMAZING.
I got to browse around and look at all the neat stuff before and after the Body World part, which in itself was worth the trip. The bodies were really cool, and it was kind of creepy to see them posed like that. They were all stripped of skin, some had bands of skin left to show how thick they'd be with it and all that, but most of them were almost all either muscle or skeletal and muscle(some were partially stripped to the skeleton). There was just one statue that had its skin...with it. It was standing in a "triumphant" pose and holding it's skin up in the air. The skin dangled down and you could see every side of it, and how weird it looked when not on the body.
Off the topic of that exhibit, my buddy Lydia and I ended up walking around together the whole time, because we looked at the same stuff on the bodies and acted the same way all over the place. It was just more fun than sticking with a group that was being boring.
Last time I was at the Science Center most of the stuff was under construction, about the nly thing that you could see well was the Dinosaur thing. And when I was little I stood under it and was momentarily scared. Lydia and I stood under the T-rex head this time and joked around about it, a few seconds after we walked away this little girl with her class looked up at it and started screaming and crying. I felt so bad for her. XD Her teacher had to bring her upstairs and sit her down for awhile.

I went home and kept trying to call people so that I could go to a movie or something, but nobody was answering their phones(even when I called later)so I sat down and played Morrowind for a few....hours.

I'm trying to think of who I should bother inviting to the JILG initiation ceremony since I know my parents won't want to come. It's a lame ceremony, but as my class reporter person I have to take part in the speech thing, and I want SOMEBODY to be there. My mom may try to get off work, but my dad will just bitch about how boring it is if he goes so I won't bother asking him. (He used to try sitting through chorus concerts but I finally told him to stop because it wasn't worth his complaining the whole time)

I'm nearly done with Shadow of The Hegemon, and I have about five other books at the ready.

Yay me!
Huzzah for being 18!

'Tis a sad, sad time

Well, Nathan has moved so there goes one of the last friends I had here.
He's now in a tidy little backwater school and is now considered the "art emo kid".(A fact which pisses him off to no end)

My parents have decided that they'll be selling our land most likely sooner than they had thought, meaning that most likely, next year I'll be trying to find a place to live while they buy land in Missouri and sell our land in Illinois. That damn subdivision next door is ruining my hastily made plan. I'll probably have till next summer at least for sure, but after that I can't be sure.

*grinds teeth*

Orthodontist appointment tomorrow, he'll be checking how I've done with this dandy little perm. retainer. I think I've done a good job so far.

I read Alice in Wonderland and Through The Looking Glass the other day, all of a book called Close Kin(a fantasy, really good one too)today, and I think just that really bad book called Guitar Highway Rose over the weekend.

Hmm...paper and a speech to write....

I have a JILG initiation ceremony later this month, but now there's nobody I really want to invite to it. I did have a fairly short list of people I had wanted to come, but for various reasons I've fallen out with everybody I've known the past year or two.
(Yay me, took all of High School to build my self-esteem and all it took was a half hour or so to bring it all crashing back down. That must be some kind of record. XD)

That trip to the Science Center on friday(My birthday, wooo!)will be really fun. Elisha, Nichole and I will probably wander the Center together after the tour of the Body Worl exhibit. We have about an hour and a half to wander around so I'll get to see all of it, unlike my one and only other trip there.

That's about it for now.

Pity party over

It's probably not good to keep pushing it down, but whatever.

Still excited for the upcoming trip to the science center, Mrs. Hirsch has been showing us videos and newspaper articles about the Body World exhibit so I pretty much know what to expect. Dead bodies will still be a bit creepy, yet cool, to see though.
I went to Borders the other day and my mom and I looked through study books to help me now, and in the future. We settled on a HUGE Anatomy and Physiology book with review questions after each chapter to help with memorization. I've already attacked it with a highlighter.

We also got a few books on haunted places in Illinois/Missouri. We plan to visit a few of them with a family friend eventually.

I've now found out that my brother's graduation will take me out of school for three days, meaning I'm going to be behind on a crapload of assignments. D-:
I may also end up taking exams because of it.
Lame on a whole new level.

My grades for first quarter came in and they're all A's and B's, Go me.

Heh, Emily and I were discussing sad songs we like to listen to on the bus today and for some reason I was blanking on Don't Let It End, by Styx. So I ended up singing the first half of it on the bus to get the name and tune in my head. Emily said she wants to hear it now. XD

...

I must seem like I'm fine but lately, but I feel like everything has fallen apart.

I never felt lonely before I met Ryan, now that he's not around I do.
It's been eating away at me every day now.

My parents think I've gotten over it, my mom just asks me every now and then if I've talked to him.
What friends I have don't even know anything is wrong, for the most part. I'd say that Emily is probably the only person who has any idea exactly how depressed I've been, and that's only because she lets me just talk when we're on the bus. I usually get off the bus and cry my way to my house. I've been trying to make myself busy to occupy my mind but it always creeps back to being sad, even if I'm busy.

Best week since summer

As the title said, this has been the best week I've had since this past summer.
First off, I got my letter from SIUE a few days back and I've been accepted. :D
I ran around my house showing it to everybody.

My PE class took a trip to the YMCA and we did the rock climbing wall. We were supposed to do the High Ropes course, but it was outside and it was pouring rain all day. Miranda, Katie, and myself sat in the back of the van driven by our teacher, I had brought my cd's and luckily the teacher likes the same bands, so there was no argument from the other students when Mrs. Hall said "We're listening to this Def Leppard cd right here". Katie was the only one of us three to make it to the top, Miranda and I kept trying but never made it. On my last try I got within a few feet of the top but lost my balance and fell. Then we had to leave so I wasn't allowed to try again. :(
I finished Desiree and got a full 1% extra credit in French, now I'm almost finished with another book as well, Hollow Kingdom. Goblins and elves and magic, Oh my!

My freshman, Emily, and I have been considering a trip to Borders soon. We both want to get the same book.

My cousin gave me his guitar for helping him clean his room. ;-D
I have a book that teaches basics of playing a keyboard. :D

My mom sold a hearing aid yesterday, ending her few week long spell of no sales. So she'll be getting more money in her paycheck.

It's been an overall good week, or at least the best in awhile. :-P

No! Not the bitter-sweet yet really catchy song! NOOOO!

I found this video with clips of a favorite movie of mine, The Scarlet Pimpernel. The song is called A Step Too Far and I highly recommend watching the video, it's really addictive. XD
I need to find a CD with the song on it.
Not surprising how addicting it is though,
" Music by Elton John
Lyrics by Tim Rice
Performed with Heather Headley, Adam Pascal and Sherie Scott
From the album Elton John and Tim Rice's Aida"
Elton John had a part in it, of course it gets stuck in one's head. -_-
A Step Too Far

Heheh, last night I had to express myself to a friend and it's a little pathetic, but all I could think of to perfectly describe it was a quote from the end of Hitch.

Mrs. Thebus got us our copies of The Scarlet Pimpernel today, so I've had it playing for awhile. I still want to get a real copy of the dvd, and a copy of the book. The 1982 version of the movie with Anthony Andrews in the lead is the one I really want, but I may try seeing the more recent one as well.

Crazy school days

The past few days have been hectic. Most of the big projects or reports in my classes have been due, like my research paper, the ENORMOUS binder filled with various applications, packets, and brochures for JILG, my book research project for English, and various papers for Shakespeare.(Along with a few different unit tests. Luckily the tests for Shakespeare are pretty easy for me, and Othello was an amazing play so I didn't have a hard time remembering specifics of it.)
Once it gets to Ten O'clock at night I've been switching over to my dvd player and re-watching Labyrinth(yes, every night. I like the movie THAT much. And people wonder how I can pull random quotes from it at a moment's notice.). Other than that I've been sticking to the Discovery Channel, the History Channel, Comedy Central, and every now and then Cartoon Network for an episode of Goosebumps or Family Guy.
Shock of the century, I've forced myself to start wearing a bit of eye makeup nearly every day. It's getting to the point where I'll need to wear it more often, so I'm getting myself used to it. If I have an extra two or three minutes before catching my bus in the morning, I'll slap on some eye shadow/mascara/eye liner and that's it. So it's not much different from what I'd normally do. It's surprising how many people have said something about it. I know why most of the people I talk to think I am doing it, but they'd never mention it so I haven't said anything.
I'll be going on a school trip to the YMCA next week, we'll be doing the High/low ropes courses, and luckily it will take most of the school day. I'll only miss JILG, Shakespeare, and English, so there won't be much trouble in making things up.
A few bad things have happened as well, first of all my dog Bella died on saturday. She was hit by a car in front of our neighboor's house. My dad set up a burn pile and burned her body, they scraped up the ashes and buried them the following morning. Luckily her puppies are old enough to eat solid food.
next, my mom was in a car accident this morning. She was on the interstate and she had stopped for traffic, a woman came up behind her at nearly full speed and smacked our car dead center on the back end. Of course, it shoved the car forward into the car in front. Luckily my mom wasn't hurt too badly, she has a pretty bruised up clavical(collar-bone, bruised by seat-belt wearers when they're in an accident, sometimes broken if enough force is put on them)and a pretty nasty bruise running up her spine, but aside from that just a few bumps and bruises. The car was completely totalled, and sadly, it looks like the woman who caused the accident doesn't have any insurance. Yay.
Now we have one car having the engine replaced, a truck that is falling apart, and.....nothing. We can't afford a new car so my mom will have to start using my dad's car when it's out of the shop, and unfortunately for me that means even if I do get a job, I won't be able to get to it. The truck doesn't have any break lights or turn signals, so I can't drive it.
That's about it for this update.

Kevorkian forever!

I'm currently working on a dialogue for French class, it's between Dr. Kevorkian and a patient who comes in to see him. The patient is slightly sick, and after hearing that Mrs. Crabs has a back ache, Dr. Kevorkian decides she is too far gone and must be put down. My partner is the doctor, i am the patient. (Yes, i know it really isn't like that with what Kevorkian does, but we needed something interesting for it and a doctor killing a woman with a cold and crabs... is pretty interesting.)
It's a pain though, I need a ton of extra verbs and I'm not exactly sure that I have the word order right...If i ask the teacher tomorrow she'll help me with it, then we'll practice it for the presentation later in the week.
I finished my paper on Video Game Content, and I must say, it's pretty damn amazing.

I have a vocabulary quiz in Anatomy tomorrow, which means I should get around to studying for it. I've started working on the next section of my story for Creative Writing, it's coming along better than i thought. Luckily I just have to type up my English logs and submit them to Turnitin.com, so I don't have to worry about writing those in class anymore.

The JILG project is proving to be quite a pain in the butt as we get further in. I still have some of my stuff to get, and none of the places I need to go are open while I'm in school.

Good news as well, once my dad gets a new truck, I get his old car. This is good since my brother just payed for it to be fully repaired, including new engine parts. All i'll have to do to clean it up is bring it somewhere to have the interior cleaned really well. There is no way to get the ground in smoke and dirt out without industrial strength cleaner and a crapload of cleaning equipment. My dad never took good care of that car.
We finally got rid of our horse Kiss as well, he was moved to his new home yesterday.

I've decided that the only two musical episodes of shows that I really enjoy are the episodes of Scrubs and Buffy.
The musical episode in Xena was okay, but it wasn't as addictive.
And those are the only ones I remember a lot about, so they're the only ones I really consider. ;-D (My mom and I watched every episode of Buffy, Xena, and Angel together, my brother remembers them too. He did a Xena-yell a few months back, right after he threw an AOL disc across the room and it did a trick of Xena-like proportions)

Also, the book Desiree by Annemarie Selinko is addicting. "The bestselling novel of Napolean's first love".
" Bernardine Eugénie Désirée Clary was a real person, and the novel Désirée by Annemarie Selinko is based on actual events in her life. Although the book varies from known facts in several places, and obviously much of it is the author's invention, Désirée really was engaged to Napoleon Bonaparte, married to Jean-Baptiste Bernadotte, and crowned Queen Desideria of Sweden."

The book smells delicious and I had to lie down on my futon for a few hours and read a large portion of it. I'll be buying a copy of it one day, it's too good of a book to only read once. Sadly, when I buy a new copy it won't have that same, oh-so-sweet smell that it carries now. :(
Oh well, I can deal with it if it's a wonderful book. :-D

If only, if only.

If only life were more like a good movie, where everything always works out just fine. In a movie world, you conveniently run into whomever you need to talk to at the time in a random place, and know exactly what to say to make everything all right. In a movie world, holding a boom box over your head and playing your favorite song for somebody makes everything better. Or, my favorite, you happen to run into a random movie star/singer and they help you make it all better.(If you get the last two references, you get a cookie. Shouldn't be too hard to do though...)
Unfortunately, real life is more like a slap in the face compared to that. People you were once close to don't even want to talk to you, people who have been your friends for a long time decide that you're not worth talking to, and no matter how much you may be crying on the inside, nobody seems to notice or care.

Anywho, I'm going to Preview SIUE on Monday, my mom was originally supposed to come but apparently my dad really wants to go. So, he'll be bringing me, and he'll even let me drive there!(He never likes it when other people drive him anywhere, since his last accident when somebody else was driving he's become paranoid. This is going to be the first time in over a year that I'll be driving him ANYWHERE.)My hair will be re-dyed tonight so that it looks nice on Monday, and I even plan on wearing a bit of makeup to look a bit less scruffy. (Don't get excited, it's just the plain old eyeshadow and mascara that I usually wear when I have to wear makeup.)
I got to play Jenga for the first time in years in PE the other day. The other two people I was playing it with are two of my remaining 'friends'. Katie and Blake. Katie was the 'daredevil' that kept pulling out random blocks on the bottom of our tower, and Blake and I would play it as safely as we could so that the tower didn't kill us. Our game lasted over a half hour, and eventually it got to where none of us were sitting, and we'd examine the tower from every angle before we tested each possible block to pull out. The bottom half of the tower was layer upon layer of a single block, Katie had pulled all the others out. Eventually it toppled on Blake though, the teacher was getting angry that our game went on so long. (Hey, when you get an amazing game of Extreme Jenga going like that, you have to see it through to the end. You can't just abandon your tower and let it fall when moves can still be made!)

I'm enjoying my permanent retainer as well, I love not having to take it off before I eat.

Ugh, sickness.

I feel like my head is about to explode. I've been out of allergy pills for awhile now and we can't get any more. I have a hard time sleeping due to the constant headaches and stuffy noses. -_-
My perm. retainer means no soda for me for awhile, I really need to take good care of it so that my teeth won't rot with it on.
I've been reading like a maniac because i have to finish Memnoch The Devil soon. Unfortunately I don't get to read much at home, and all of my classes are extremely busy. I had to renew Desiree because I've had it for the limit of six weeks already, and I have yet to get a chance to start it.
Nearly 2/3 through Lost though, so that's good at least.

Mrs. Hirsch has started on her letter of recommendation for me, so all I need to do for my JILG project now is make a trip into town and gather the rest of my stuff.

I've spent the past few days fending off the advances of Lance, my brothers friend who lives with us. He's been dropping hints at me for a few days and I don't want to make him uncomfortable here by telling him to cut it the fuck out.
We've now gotten about eight letters from Glenn, I keep thinking of writing to him but never get the chance. In his last letter he specifically asked me to write him, so I'll probably tell him about the obedience training I've been doing with Pork Chop, and maybe a picture of Pork Chop as well if we can get the film developed.

It's been very strange, throughout the day I start to forget the nightmares I'm having every night and I'll switch into a good mood, then all of a sudden it'll hit me again along with a whirlwind of depression. Somehow, I don't think it's very healthy.

The paper of DOOM

I decided to join SADD today(Students Against Destructive Decisions, oh boy!). It's kind of lame and it's with Ms. Romero, who is from Texas but acts like she's some combination of Paula Abdul and Jennifer Lopez. It's kind of nasty, but she's at least friendly. My friend Miranda wanted to check it out and asked me to go with her, I had nothing better to do at the time so I went. It's something that I can add to my notes for Mrs. Hirsch for my letter of reccomendation. Mr. Konopka is working on his letter now, so I have both of the ones I need for JILG.

Apparently the two guys that Erin and i met at Cardinals Day a few weeks back have been calling her and talking to her, one of them asked her if i was single, yay. >.<
I told her to tell him something convincing. We'll probably run into them at another JILG event, but that won't be for awhile. They're from way, way up north so it's not like I'll run into either of them around town.

Mrs. Frederickson gave us our deadline for the Tristin and Isolde/Beowulf-Old English Epic Poems paper, luckily I have most of it planned out already. Much like my research paper, which I also have completely planned out, all I'm missing is my interview with Kyle. Yes, that's right. My teacher is allowing me to interview a friend and use the interview as a source. Video Game Content is a subject that is better discussed with somebody who plays controversial games often, unfortunately I can't interview myself.

I've now re-watched nearly every episode of Buffy in my possession, which is just about every one of the last four seasons. I've been working on ways to perfect my halloween costumes, and get past the problem of not wearing pantyhose with the Buffy one. I decided that shorts under the skirt would work well. My nana is going to help me alter the Daphne dress to make it fit more tightly, it's waaaay to loose right now. She fixed my green skirt yesterday as well, it now fits perfectly so that I don't have to safety pin it to whatever shirt I'm wearing to ensure that it won't fall down.
I think I may take a picture of my prototype Buffy outfit, it looks really awesome.
Or at least to me it does. Kind of like the corset thing. I want one and would love to wear one, but i highly doubt I'd look good in one when being judged by other people. XD

Now, on to my personal response paper for Sociology!

Nearly halloweeny time!

My mom brought me to the Halloween store today in an attempt to cheer me up a bit after a rough night.
We browsed for over an hour, I saw many costumes that I liked but she would probably strangle me if I tried to buy them.

We settled on a Daphne costume(Yes, the Daphne from Scooby Doo). We'll be ordering a pair of white Go Go Boots online to go with it. If we don't manage to get the white boots, my costume will be shifted to a Buffy-ish style. My mom gave me a pair of old, knee-length black boots, and I have an outfit that looks like you just took it out of Buffy's closet. My mom and I used to watch Buffy every time it came on when i was younger, and over the last few days I've been rewatching the episodes on themost amazing website ever.
I alternate between episodes of Buffy and episodes of Animorphs/Salute Your Shorts. ;-D

Homecoming was a real bust. >.<
I hooked up Lance(my current brotherly figure now that Glenn is gone)with a girl that I know likes him. And one of my few remaining friends, Jarod, reminded me that i am officially the Pink Power Ranger. (Kimberly, the only really cool pink ranger) I approached him at the dance and he said "You're not wearing pink!" That was before he noticed that under the sheer black part of the dress was a pink slip, and my nails were pink.
He held up the blue ranger's position with a blue shirt, and the girl we made into the yellow ranger remembered to wear some yellow. (Yellow necklace and nails, it looked really pretty)
I stayed at the dance for about an hour, then left due to lack of interest.
We still have to find a good black ranger, red ranger, and green ranger at least to fill in some spaces.
(Yes, it's lame, I know. Let us have our fun. :-P)

First post. Not that interesting.

Hmm....

I think I'll actually use this as a diary, i'll get extra credit in Creative Writing for doing so. ;-D
'Tis okay, all of my angst-ridden rant-fests that I've been popping off to friends on Gaia and GN lately will not be made here, I'd rather they not be public. :-P

I bought the a cd set at wal-mart today, Luciano Pavarotti: The Greatest Tenor of All Time. I bought The new Ozzy cd, Black Rain, two weeks ago, and that same day my mom bought me a book in an attempt to cheer me up.
Lost, by Gregory Maguire. So far, it's one of my favorite books written by him, I'm also reading Memnoch The devil by Anne Rice for my English Four project, and a book called Desiree for French. It's over 600 pages long, lots of French terms that I'm glad i know.
I also got ahold of a copy of Les Miserable, which I'll probably end up reading over Christmas break, I won't have much else to do. I'll read more of my Complete Works of The Brothers Grimm over the break as well.

Mr. Strong is allowing me to interview a friend for my Research Paper(Video Game Content, my thesis statement is that they don't have the negative effects that a lot of politicians say they do. ;-D)
Now i just have to figure out who to interview. I'd like to get Kyle, he likes the GTA games so much that it would be a good example of somebody who doesn't just go around shooting people after playing the game.

I GET MY PERMANENT RETAINER NEXT WEEK!
No more running to the bathroom to remove a nasty, slimy piece of plastic for me! My mom is thinking of paying for my teeth to be whitened as well. After the amount of crap Dr. Haug did to my teeth, anything will make them better.
I also discovered why my sinuses are so damn painful constantly. It's most likely because of the original odd shape of my nose and the fact that when I broke it, it wasn't set properly. So it hardened again while in a funky position, which screwed up my sinuses. It can be fixed with plastic surgery, but there are two reasons I won't do that, at least for awhile. First, we have no health insurance, so we'd have to pay for it on our own and we cannot afford that right now. Second, it would most likely require changing the shape of my nose completely, which I'm not sure I want to do. Don't get me wrong, I would love it if I could walk down a hallway and hear people whisper about how my nose looks like a bird beak, but I think I would feel weird not having my usual nose.

Hopefully Mr. Strong(By the way, he's my Sociology teacher)will be able to get a field trip worked out. He wants to take his classes to a high school in East St. Louis for a full day, and everybody in the class would be partnered with a person of another race. We would be partnering with the school's Sociology classes most likely. But, obviously, it's a little hard to get permission for it. He's been trying for it for awhile now, and this is the first year there has really been a chance to go, and this high amount of people WANTING to go.
'Twill be fun if we do go.

Off to finish painting my nails!
(Heh, I haven't painted my nails since this time last year. I'm only going to homecoming for an hour or so, most likely not even that, and yet I'm preparing for it like I'm spending the whole day there.)